sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in your heart, is the only way for destiny.
i can't help but miss s22 to bitZz and pieceZz. once you're contented and happy with something, then its taken away from you, what else can you do but long for all those times to come back? i could've gotten used to EVERYTHING about the PAE days. come to think of it, being with everyone in s22 is worth SO MUCH to me. i'd sacrifice the gp lessons, anything, everything! the other day i was thinking to myself that i'd rather eat 10 WHOPPERS (which are HUGE, btw. :P) than to have us all split up... i just wish things could be the way they were just last monday.
so its 2.11 AM now. i was supposed to shut down the com, but felt extra emo since tmr's another day of sch without serene, without huiqi, without li phin, without glen and without zeejay! )))'''''''''''''''''': i've really grown close to them after the few weeks we've been together. it feels like we've known each other for so long. you guys made my life so much more EXCITING and COLOURFUL. thank you all so much!! loveloads(:
isn't it so true how absence makes the heart grow fonder? just a few days of being away from everyone feels like an ETERNITY. i really can't believe that it was only last monday that we spent our finaly day as a cg together. 4 days ago. FOUR days! feels like 9824329765645692. ): sigh, emo-ness is plaguing the world. it's everywhere- written in everyone's blogs, etched on everyone's faces, evident in everyone's actions.
HUGEHUGEHUGE SIGH. i guess its because we refuse to move on. at least I refuse to move on.
that's why on day1 of orientation i felt so anti-social, i wasn't in the 'making friends mood'. i was aloof almost the whole time, smsing SASI people non-stop. i was miserable almost the whole day. each time i saw someone from s22 though, i was in RAPTURES. we'd sometimes hug and talk a bit (abt how much we miss each other), and i'd be SO glad for a while that fate caused our paths to cross..
ah, i promised myself i wouldn't fall again into this 'slough of despond' (haha, buh.) but well, here i am anyways, at the bottom of this deep deep pit.
but you know what? when i look up i see 5 SMILING FACES, of people i've begun to love, pulling me upwards and out of the pit. and then suddenly everything's alright, and i'm happy. at least for a while. I LOVE SASI so much! i just somehow wish i wasn't so emotionally dependent on them so i'd be cheery in school and not -__- and emo.
sigh. im trying to think of smth that will lighten my mood. :/ all i can think of is that tomorrow's a friday, so WEEKEND's a coming. oh, and im really glad beyond description that our scheds are not yet so hectic, meaning there's been room SASI reunions all over the place. :D it's the one thing that keeps me going...
sorry for such an emo post.
if i could only let you know
i'd give up everything i own
for just one more day with you
there's nothing i wouldn't do
..if only i could live twice
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